Youniverse

why do these boxes always feel like resumes? i hate that part. i am. i exist as i am and that is enough.

im an artist at heart, a writer in my soul, a trapeze artist on my best days, and a sleep study patient on my worst. i have a penchant for being a wallflower, a beach comber in rolled up jeans and flip flops, a book worm in a blanket, a gentle body and energy worker, a green thumb and a blues lover of all kinds. i have a penchant for gardening, and am a lover of nature in most of its forms except for: large spiders, mosquitos and scat.

i enjoy avacadoes and have the uncanny gift of being able to pick the most perfectly ripe fruit from the grocery store (i think technically it is a fruit, and preferably from a natural foods co-op) every time. i enjoy water, and mobiles, tree swings and vocal jazz. i enjoy Reiki and Yoga, toe rings and edemame, hibiscus juice and agave nectar.

i ah... wish i was a yoga instructor, a chaos theorist, an ultimate frizbee player, and/or roller derby kick ass babe. i wish i was an oceanographer, or could make fattigmann and krumkake like my great aunt could (and dont forget the Finnish butter cookies please and thank you). i wish i was a chocolatier, could do dream studies or thesis work on out of body experiences, own some land, was a geisha in old japan, a race car driver (and a good one at that). i wish i was a poet and novelist of some renoun, and since we are wishing here; Siddartha, Shiva, Green Tara and Ganesha rolled into one.

i would love to live in a tree house or a cob house, meet Aung Sung Su Chi, read the Bhagavad Gita, play the ney flute, apprentice with a shaman in the Amazon and understand my experience with Ayahuasca. i would love to speak Cherokee, Cantonese, Persian and/or Swahili maybe even all at once.

i will keep bees, see Bali, Turkey, Thailand, Nepal, Bhutan, and Tibet. i will travel to Bern to purchase and then play the hang drum. i will study Qi Gong, memorize TS Eliot's "The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock", write my book, and learn to meditate for more than 6 minutes. i will repair my relationship with my brother and get a few more tattos. i will conquer depression and find my way back to love. i will learn to sail, blow glass and will never buy diamonds. i will create a body work modality based on the chakras, and find a hypnotherapist i like. i will volunteer at Breitenbush for an extended period of time, learn to eat breakfast once and for all, and play mahjong like a pro. i will find my soulmate/twin flame and live off the grid on one of the Puget Sound Islands. i will co-create my future with the universe and learn to be thankful and humbled by every moment i am here.

namaste.

music: here are just some of my favorites...

Bliss, Mazzy Star, Sheila Chandra, The Talking Heads, Neko Case, The Sundays, Carlos Nakai, Kristen Hersch, Robert Cray, Dido, The Doors, Norah Jones, Susana Baca, U2, The Weekend Players, Bob Marley, The Shins, Stevie Wonder, Edie Brikell, Bessie Smith, Sting, Eryka Badu, Coldplay, anything the Buddah Bar might play, Jill Scott, Al Jarreau, Portishead, Miles Davis, Allison Moyet, Delerium, Radiohead, Bobby McFerron, Dead Can Dance, Jack Johnson, Lauren Hill, Peter Gabriel, Theivery Corporation, Joan Armatrading,and on and on...

and movies:

The Piano, Gods and Monsters, Broken Flowers, Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, Bodies Rest and Motion, The Sheltering Sky, Fantasia, Six Degrees of Seperation, Shortbus, Amadeus, Lost in Translation, The Abyss, Ghost Dog, Frida, Getting to Know You, Hero, the Carnival collection, Chantilly Lace, A Beautiful Mind, My Own Private Idaho, The Fisher King, Dangerous Liaisons, Babel, Garden State, Once, The Puffy Chair, Blood Diamonds, I Heart Huckabees, so many more...

and books...

dont even get me started, this list would never end. here are just 5. that's it: Power; Linda Hogan, Siddartha; Herman Hesse, Housekeeping; Marianne Robinson, Mating; Philip Roth, Memoirs of a Geisha; Arthur Golden.